ever get that feeling...

ever get that feeling...

my oh my. i was talking to my fave cousin bab a while ago (she's just 15 by the way) about nothing. we ended up talking about favorite tv shows, and she asked me if i watched the o.c. i was like, "i think i heard of that show. is that the one patterned after beverly hills 90210?" and gave me a blank look and said: "what's beverly hills?" ouch. that hurt. because talking to someone who doesn't know what beverly hills 90210 is can only mean one thing: i am definitely getting old. and it doesn't help any that i am now demoted to organizing bridal and baby showers, weddings and children's parties whereas before i organized back to school parties, sem break parties, summer parties and sorority parties. damn. has it really been that long already? it has been 6 years since high school graduation, 2 years since college graduation, and my friends are slowly settling down, getting married and having kids. i feel kinda sad about it, cause i know things are never gonna be the same. i know change is part of life, but i'm not sure if i'm ready to move on yet, even though i know i should. to quote joey tribianni: "i was happy in new york, i didn't want things to change. but everyone else moved on so i had no choice but to move on as well."

i am still the same lally that i was 6 years ago, only now minus the 5:30 am curfew and the allowance from my parents. yes, i am older and yes, i would soon settle down...maybe, if that is really what is destined for me. but for now, maybe i'll have fun first.

happily ever after?

happily ever after?

one by one, my friends are slowly tying the knot with their significant others, and whenever i see them on their wedding days, it makes me feel happy for them and jealous all at the same time. they look so happy, it's as if their dreams finally came true. but it makes me wonder: will they probably feel the same after spending 10 (or more) years with the same man? or will they wish that they never married?

in this world that we live in right now, it is quite common to see people getting married, separating and getting a divorce after. like brad and jen. demi and bruce. tom and nicole. if it can happen to these drop-dead gorgeous people with "almost perfect" lives, then is there any hope for us little people?

i know marriage entails more than living comfortably with your family or maintaining the "spark" that you have with your other half. to quote count olaf from lemony snickett's series of unfortunate events: "marriage is no picnic. you gotta make it work." but how do you "make things work" in a marriage? come to think of it, if you are going to be spending the rest of your life with only one person, spend every waking hour with that person, and almost live and breathe that person, do you think you're gonna survive? i know some romantics out there would probably disagree with me and say that "if you love the person 'till death do us part is not that hard", which is probably true, but seriously, can you? i'm not sure if i can. don't get me wrong, i do want to get married in the future and i do want to have a family someday, but I can't help but think if it is really worth it. If you are bound to fall out of love in the future and it will eventually lead to separation or divorce , why get married in the first place? which makes me think: is there really such a thing as a "happily ever after"?